Terry Therapy Sessions VII

I had my first phone therapy session with Terry last week. It went okay. Tonight is my next session.

The first thing we hit on was my mom and sister's little petty arguments I had to put up with while I was visiting. My sister accused my Mom with spilling coffee in my sister's SUV. My Mom denied it. It was a weeks old stain and my sister said it was new. My Mom's retaliation was to be short tempered with my sister. My Mom got really pissy toward the end of my visit. I told Terry that it was really getting on my nerves but I stayed out of the affair. She told me I handle it the right way. That my mom was probably trying to draw me into the whole thing and I did the best thing by refusing to comment or take sides.

While I took my nephews to SeaWorld, I had a fleeting thought of maybe slamming a quick drink. The thought went away quickly but it I had it. Terry said I again did the right thing. First I held myself accountable. Next that I also thought about my Mom's reaction if she saw me. She told me those are the kind of things I need to do once the pee test goes away. She asked me if I was going to tell my BOC (acronym stands for Big Oil Company, my employer) case worker. I told her no way. She'd freak out and make me do more things and probably extend my twice monthly visits.

She asked me how I was going to mark my first year of sobriety. I told her I wasn't. I don't like the AA birthday celebrations. She told me I needed to acknowledge it in some way. I also told her that I've been thinking of telling my story at a speaker meeting. She's kind of surprised that I hadn't done it yet. I'm thinking of waiting until I get my license back and telling my story at my original AA club.

We also touched on Dee in Tampa. I told her I was still harboring ill feelings on her for skipping out on her planned trip to see me. Dee had sent me a video of a man going off on Starbucks. It really wasn't funny. I told her that I replied to Dee about how I didn't like it. I felt latter that I may have responded negatively to the email in retaliation for not coming to visit.

The last thing we talked about was God. I told her that as much as I wanted to think that God doesn't interfere with our lives and we have complete freewill, I just can't believe that after all that's happened to me. Her I was a year ago facing jail time for a third offense felony DWI. It was reduced to a second offense misdemeanor along with which I got no jail time, no community service, no rehab classes and virtually no terms of conditions for probation. If that isn't God interfering in my life I don't know what is.

We closed on that subject and scheduled the next one. I'll have my next one posted soon. I've got updates on Violet and Binks too. Until then I hope if anyone reads this you can attain the positive feelings I have as of late.

Goodnight,
Pope Johannes Paulus III