No Rest for the Wicked

Burning the Candle

I looked at my calendar and realized that I only had four days off in the month of May. I basically worked the entire month. No wonder I'm so tired. I need to slow it down. My temp assignment is drawing to and end soon. Then I go back to my regular job...which I'm not looking forward to. I'd rather stay where I'm at.

At least I've got some vacation time in June and July. I need it. I still don't know what I'm going to do but I'm leaning heavily toward Vegas.

Disturbing Texts

Last night I received a disturbing text from a coworker. She broke up with her boyfriend. It's a really weird situation she created for herself. Basically she doesn't have the balls to throw him out. She claims that she can't afford the house without him and he won't sign off on a sell so she has to stay with him. I told her in Texas she's already in a common law marriage. I told her to go see a divorce lawyer and start divorce proceedings. She won't.

She's my friend but I purposely keep my distance. She's chaos, a drama queen and loves misery. I figure such a friendship would be draining on me. I don't have time for that.

So she texts me to come hang out with her to cheer her up. I can't because I'm working. She then asked me to call in sick this week and go hang with her. I told her no cause I may need those sick day when I'm actually sick. She then told me that she's going to just pop pills and sleep the rest of her time off. She said a few more things. I told her if she's looking for sympathy I'm not sympathetic to her situation.

I don't feel sorry for her. I don't want her moods to bring me down. She needs to get her shit together and move on from this relationship. She needs to learn to have friends and not wear them down. She created her own mess and she needs to clean it up.

Once I get back to my regular job, where she works, I'm going to have to be on pins and needles with her. I also don't want her to mistake my friendship and anything more. Let's face it, she disgusts me on several levels. Physically she won't take care of herself. She binge eats when she's depressed. Mentally she's off her rocker sometimes. We all are. Unlike others, she knows it but she won't take action about it. I gave her the number to my shrink several months ago. I don't think she's been. She thrives on chaos at work and home. I can't deal with that drama.

I hope she can get her shit together. Unfortunately for her but fortunately for me, I won't put up with it. It's going to reach a point where I'm going to say grow up, grow a set and straighten your shit cause I can't, I won't and I will not be your friend under these circumstances.