House Arrest, My Women

Well, having a license suspended is like almost being on house arrest. Of course, I can leave the apartment and do what I have to. I just can't drive. I don't even qualify for an occupational license to get to and from work. That blows. Getting caught driving isn't an option. I got off so light on my probation terms I won't risk it. It still fucking blows.

Rebecca and her daughter surprised me on Valentine's Day and took me out to dinner. I'm glad they did cause I was in my depressed mode and already in bed when they called. The next day was my court date that I wrote about earlier. She said she'd come and visit me and take me to run errands if needed something. I believe it when I see it.

Speaking of Rebecca, a couple of women in my life just absolutely hate her. Dee in Tampa wants a certain item. I can get her a good deal through Rebecca's store. At least 50% off. I hesitated telling her I could get this item from Rebecca but she wants it so bad I brought up the subject. Dee told me hell no. As much as she wants this item she said she didn't want it from Becca and called her a cunt. It pissed me off but I let it go. Dee is coming for a visit and I don't want bad blood between us. Plus she is one of the few people I let talk openly about anything to me.

Violet is the other one that hates her. I get why Violet hates Rebecca. They are both my ex-girlfriends. Violet hates anyone I date. Anyone. No questions asked. She has a natural hatred for them. I've had two girlfriends since me and Violet broke up several years ago. She hates both of them. She admitted that she still loves me. It's all a jealousy thing. She even went so far as to ask me if I'd invite her to my wedding if I ever got married. I didn't answer. Instead I asked her if she would attend. She said no. She would said she would say congrats on the phone and that's all. She wouldn't be able to handle it.

Violet went so far as to tell me once I need to get Rebecca out of my life. I told Violet that it was none of her business on who I see and who my friends are. She was stunned. She told me I never had talked like that to her before. I told her I did because she never stuck her nose in my business like that before. It highly pissed her off and she hung up on me. She eventually got over it and asked me never to mention Rebecca's name again.

Dee's hatred for Violet is just as deep. Violet doesn't know too many details about my friendship with Dee or else I think the hatred would be reciprocated. Dee though, her hatred of Violet runs deep. When I got in my trouble and Violet was wanting to move back from Florida, I offered Violet a place to stay until she got back on her feet. I knew better than to mention it to Dee. ON the phone one day I let it slip. Holy shit was the next few minutes a disaster as I listened to Dee go on a rant. Whatever. I going to do what I'm going to do.

No, Violet isn't moving in with me. I don't think she intends to move back from Florida. She claims to put in for a transfer but her bosses are ignoring her. I think she's seeing someone there. She's not one t be alone. Her self esteem won't allow it. It's too low. She needs to be fucking someone at all times. She sleeps around when she's not dating someone. She thinks I don't know this but we have mutual friends. It's fucked up. She never cheats on anyone but she sleeps around. It's her business. It's how she fills her lonely life up. If she wanted to settle down and find someone she could. She's a good looking woman and smart. She just doesn't know how to be happy.

Well, that's my therapy for tonight. I don't post more often because there really isn't much going on with my life. A lot of TV watching and reading.

The Pope