Back to work, prick cops, friend update

My last few posts have been pretty moody to say the least. I'm have cabin fever since the worst is over and I've completed all the requirements of my probation. I just can't drive for the next nine months.

I went to my shrink on Monday and she released me to go back to work. I told her I was ready to. If she didn't I was going to ask her to release me. I have no reason anymore to stay home. I need to get my life moving forward again.

My shrink asked me if I had any cravings for drinking. I told her cravings no but I did admit that I thought about it. I told her that I have thoughts about drinking. Like the other night I was watching TV and I thought how nice it would be just to relax and have a beer. I still do. As far as cravings go, I don't have them.

That last post of mine was pretty deep. I've had that circling around in my head forever and I needed to get it off my chest. It's all true. Suicide was a very real consideration for me. It's all gone now.

While on my sabbatical, I promised myself I would do two things. First I would clean up my place and second I would catch up on my reading and the piles of burned DVDs I have. I accomplished none of the above. In fact my place has turned into a bigger mess. I really need to do something about it though. Eventually.

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I've written how I don't like cops and I think most of them are psycho to some degree or are just down right assholes. My DWI arrests have nothing to do with my opinion. My encounter last week just added to my low opinion of cops. William and I were going to dinner last week. He put his signal on, started to change lanes but pulled back into his lane when he noticed another car in the lane. The car pulled behind us and there go the police lights. Will pulled into a closed business parking lot.

The cop walks up to the window with an attitude and asks Will,"So do you always try to crash while changing lanes?"

Will replied,"Sir, I didn't see you. I put my blinker on before I started to change lanes, then I saw you and pulled back into my lane before I hit you."

"So you think putting your blinker on gives you the right to change lanes?"

"No sir. I'm just stating that I put my blinker on and I didn't see you. I had no intention of hitting you."

"So your blinker excuses you from trying to hit me?"

"No. I'm saying I didn't see you."

"Do you like to have wrecks?"

"No."

The cop then asks for license and proof of insurance. He continues to grill Will with the same line of questions while Will digs through the glove compartment looking for the insurance card. The cop gets angry and tells Will to look at him while answering his questions.

After he runs the license he comes back with more stupidity.

"Do you want to haves a wreck?"

"No."

"If you would have hit me we would have to call the crash investigators. We would have been out here for at least three hours. You want to be out here for three hours?"

"No."

"Me either. If you would have hit me we would have though. You know a car is a three thousand pound machine. If you can't drive it right then you should let someone else drive."

The only good thing is that the asshole cop didn't give Will a ticket.

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Not much updates on my friends. Rebecca called me yesterday to see if I was okay. I said yes. She said she got a collect call from a correctional facility at her store but they hung up before she could accept charges. She said of course she new I was okay. She didn't say it but she wanted to make sure it wasn't me calling from jail. Nice to know I'm the first person she thinks of when she gets a call from a prison or jail.

Violet is already fighting with her new boyfriend. She's in a deep depression. So bad that she doesn't want to see or deal with anyone. He went to her place and she didn't want to see him. He came to her job and started asking what was her problem. She said she was in a bad depression. He doesn't believe her. He told her he thinks she has someone else. She told me she can't believe he's acting like this already with her. She says he's a nice guy and she likes him but doesn't know if she can deal with him right now with he depression and if he's going to be acting like this. I told you my over/under for this relationship is three months.

Goodnight and remember as Pope I pray you remember my first miracle. I cured a ham.

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