Violet MIA, Snakes in a Dream

I'm concerned about Violet. I've called her at work and she hasn't been in. Her coworker answers and just tells me she's not in. She disconnected her cell phone a month ago. I have no other way to get in touch with her. She was supposed to go see her doctor about her depression. I haven't seen her this depressed in a long time. She also has a history of walking off her jobs so I'm hoping she has done this again. I can't help her. I won't help her. Fuck, I wish I knew what the hell was going on with her.

Moving on, two nights ago I had a really fucking weird dream. I dreamed I was surrounded by snakes. Not just any ordinary snakes but rattlesnakes of all sizes. I'm not sure where I was. I was surrounded by darkness. The only thing I could see clearly was the snakes. They didn't notice me at all. I was walking along a path the was free of snakes. They didn't cross the path either. They were moving all around and slithering all over each other. I remember asking if rattlesnakes swarm like that. I disembodied voice answered me that they do. The only other thing I remember is someone picked up a snake and milked it for its venom. Sometimes I can recall more of a dream later in the day. Not this time. I have no idea what else happened.

I talked to my lawyer on Thursday about the possibility of getting an occupational license. He doesn't handle those cases himself anymore due to his caseload. He's going to talk to the lawyer that does and see if he can pull it off. One thing I give lawyers credit for is that if there's a loophole the will find it. He told me he won't go to the judge that heard my case to try to get the license. If that doesn't work he told me sometimes they go to one a court in one of the surrounding counties. What ever it takes. If I get one, I don't care how it's done.

I also received more good news about my license suspensions. In most states there are two aspects to a DWI/DUI suspension. An administrative and a criminal aspect. The administrative deals with suspensions due to a) a driver refusing to a chemical sobriety test or b) failing the sobriety with, in most cases, a blood alcohol level above .08. It's a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation. If you consent you can lose your license. If you don't you can lose your license for an even longer period. I refused and at the hearing the judge ruled for a two year suspension. I received a letter from DPS telling me it was for six months. My lawyer told me that was a form letter and most likely I would receive a letter later stating the two year period. I never got one so I called DPS and the clerk told me it was for six months. Thank God for that cause it would really suck to be confined to my apartment for two years. So come February I'll fucking be clear and free from all legal restraints.