Uh Oh

I talk to Violet just about every day. Today she must have been in one of her moods. By that I mean unstable. She sounded distant and distracted. She asked how I was doing and how things were going with my mom’s surgery. I told her the date hadn’t been set yet.

Of course, she did her usual bitching at me. I have been complaining about my cell phone lately. So today she asked if I had a new one yet. I said no. She asked why not. She said I make a lot of money so I should go buy one. I told her that wasn’t the point. I’ve been busy as hell at work. She then countered with the fact that stores are open until 9:00 p.m. and that I could go get a new phone after work. Never mind that I work 12 hour days and haven’t had consecutive days of in two weeks. Not only that but some things are more important to me than wanting a new phone. I told her that sometimes after work I want to see my friends. I have to drive back to Houston to see them and once I’ve had dinner and a few drinks with them I’m ready to go home. She kept her nagging and I almost hung up on her.

I then told her I’m planning to go to Florida once I’m done with taking care of my mom after her surgery. I’ve been given approval to take up to six weeks unpaid leave to help my mother. So currently the plan is take care of mom, go on vacation and then move. I told Violet that while I’m in Florida I want to see her. She’s just quiet and then says,” If I’m still here.” I asked her what she meant. She said she could pack up her car and back to Houston soon. I’m thinking to myself oh shit.

It’s her life and she can do what she wants. I’m just curious how she will behave toward me once she’s back. Is she going to expect me to call her every day? Is she going to expect me to spend time with her? She’s hinted about all these things in the past. She’s my friend and all but I have no interest in rekindling any kind of relationship with her.

Maybe I’m jumping the gun. I just wish she would quit calling me her impossible love. I asked her what that meant. She said I’m the person she’s always loved and she’ll never have me again so I’m impossible. She says she fell in love with me years ago when we met and never stopped loving me. I was honest with her and told her I don’t love her. I stopped loving her a few years ago.

She cried that I forgot her…..that’s a story for another time.

As the great Bob Marley sang,” No Woman, No Cry”

Yes, the Pope listens to reggae and likes the Rasta philosophy.
Goodnight,
Pape Jean Paule