Tomorrow at noon I have the meeting with the counselor and work. I'm taking a union rep with me. I'm anxious as hell. I was so bad I had to call my shrink. She called in a xanax prescription for me. I hate taking the stuff. I still haven't showered. I really need to. I'm just so out of it. I just want to go back to work and get my life back on track.

That's all.